Rules Exist to be Broken

Very often I will feel helpless and lonely Even though I have a normal family Even though I have some friends Even though I am no different to others I feel lonely However, I have found this.  I hope it will be useful for me to think about it.  [When I was in solitary retreat, I knew that I was together with all sentient beings in innumerable worlds. Even though I seemed to be alone in a small, enclosed room, actually I was in company with many ants who found their way inside, and there were many insects around the hut who created all kinds of sounds in the evening. When I opened the Sutras, people thousands of years in the past were talking to me. How could I feel lonely? Some people think  I must feel lonely being a monk without any wife or children. Not at all. I have the 5 precepts and the 10 Virtuous Deeds as my wife, and my children are all the people who I have developed a karmic affinity with and who call me Shih-fu. It is only those pitiable people who enclose ...

What do you think about rebellion? I think it's remarkable acts or thoughts that will never recognized by elder peoples which they will never understand "what are those youngster have in mind?! crazy.. rebellion!" So? I think we must have done something according to our growing process  such as, skip school during high school life befriend with gangsters and be a little wild get caught dating somewhere in the town and your mum hated your bf to the max!  =P ahh, yes yes... all the "such as" above was my personal experiences. I don't have any brilliant records that allowed me to show off to my grandchildren  But i guess, what important is I have already been through all these! no regrets...  Therefore, I am not regret that I skipped my convocation ceremony which only happen once in a lifetime x) and happen to be held days before my birthday (which I make wish everyday and night that I could make it unforgettable, memorable)  Being as the most intelligent sent...

不是每个周末，假日都要出门 乱花钱买所谓的“懂得生活” "懂得享受“ 生活才叫有品位，有意义？ 我不是这样想 不过，我的确有点宅，有点异于常人 只是彼此所追求的生活 style不一样罢了 今天是屠妖节，印度同胞的过年 睡到饱饱的（应该也不算是，因为他们玩爆竹到半夜2，3点 >.<！） 起来看到桌上有盒杂锦饼，很明显有muruku 哦...楼上的印度邻居真有心～ 我住的地方是政府起的廉价租屋，20多年了 很多人都搬到Puchong去了，嫌这里越来越 “没安全感” 因为很多发达了的老居民搬迁了就把这里的旧居就出租给外劳 这里的优点是四通八达，公共交通也很方便 方便的另一个说法就是人流进出很多，变成复杂了 小社区从以前的很多野狗，现在变成很多野流氓 早晨阿婆阿公晨运到巴刹会有时候被打劫 其实，这种事情，任何地点时间都有可能发生 对象嘛.... 看你是不是那么”幸运“被抽中咯～ 话说回来，我就说我妈咯 “你看，人家过年都会给些饼酱，我们过年都没过人家“ 没错的话我们已经吃了人家的年饼2，3次了  世间人情冷暖，其实都是必须先自己主动心想力行的 明年过年，我应该得提醒老妈自行包装一些年饼给邻居 回礼之余，联络感情及表达别人对自己有心的感激 人心肉做的，给予温暖它会跳动得更健康 x) 现在我就在电脑前摇脚，啃muruku，点了香薰 (bodyshop, sandalwood Ginger)  听着Kenny G，多爽～ 对了，刚刚也给自己的脚洗了三温暖 自己给自己的SPA 算算，我也回港（回到避风港）4个多快5个月了 休息了一个月就工作，其实还没有很适应成为社会一份子的生活 刚开始时，很无奈又沮丧，生活没有什么冲劲，不像大学时候 总是很多挑战，很辛苦，但是很有成就感（哪来的成就感？@.@） 唯一比较满足的是，现在有income, 结果也就是更多的outcome 更多理由会把income流到不懂哪里去 很多人事物给你理由付钱 赶论文的日子，用来吊住自己的动力与期待就是 毕业典礼，想象与祈祷它会落在11.11.11  然后开心，欢聚 后来有变卦，就听说会延迟，又再祈祷它落在生日 哇～ 人家说诚心诚意的许愿通常会得到。我的确常会发生的，但，结果总是 我没有享受的得到愿望实现的结果。 我，放弃不出席毕业典礼了。 我选择“离开” ...

It's been a while I did not update anything in here I did not lose the passion to blog, its just I have too much to blog! even when Im on the road, when I look up to the sky,  even when I'm walking in the night market! There are so much to learn in our life  not only what you have experienced, but also what you have seen and listen or  even when you feel for your daily life! There are always a hole in my heart of soul  I don't know how to filled it, before I've ascertain my direction  I thought it was because of me did not make a future plan for my life and did not being mature  Everyone's blue prints are almost the same: primary, secondary, highschool, college, career, money, marriage, family, die I've know about that long ago and I am certain with what and how I will do with that somehow, the heart still feel empty I've misperceived it as I felt lonely, and I need a partner However, I found out it wasn't the problem It's happen wit...

一直都很喜欢去 KK时，必经的那条长长弯弯的沿海道路 觉得那是康庄大道 喜欢那两旁被人工栽种、照顾得很好的椰子树 尤其是坐着摩托车时，可以感觉到太阳很大 但是徐徐的风吹着椰子树，看起来就像是在摆动“身体”一样 哟，我很变态的喜欢咯 我享受阳光的温暖加上柔柔的风，看绿油油 的椰树在 “跳舞” 欣赏海浪粼粼和悠哉悠哉的大船 有一次我竟然忍不住拿出相机想拍 吓死司机小姐，哈哈哈哈！她说前面有交警咧! 等下你的相机掉下去你就哭死! 哇哈哈哈 xD 因此，我很兴奋5月1号的来临! 天知道我这副臭皮囊不太中用 所以，在3个月前我就尽力的去training，并不是 要练到很厉害的runner,但，至少体力要练到不会跑一跑 就变成“倩女幽魂”的脸，还晕了就不好了 能想象吗？我今天，就慢步在“康庄大道”! 我开心到～～ 兴奋到～～ 唯一是，相机不在手里 拍不到给你们看，哈哈哈! 但，我有很多朋友有带着他们的 DSLR去做volunteer,应该有一两张的... 嘻嘻 很早咧，4.30am就出发了，因为怕没有parking， 结果是有很多位子咯。但，也好的，因为发生一些小状况 就是车胎被锁，因为电房前面不可以停车 （车主已很久不是KGe住民了） 哇～ 快快去找guard解锁, 还要被罚Rm20! 鸡蛋糕！KgE 真的越来越有“人性”了 在UMS大门前等红绿灯时，就已经可以看到交警和封路了 那是封给full marathon runner的, 他们要跑42公里耶！4am就开始跑了 最gin yao的是，我们的车驶向kk方向时，看到的是有选手已经在 跑着回出发点的路上了，是个黑人，甚至交警要替他开路!  我们的脸>>  O____O 哇....... 那时才5点niaa...  跑着的一路上，形形色色，什么人都有 豹纹打扮的也有！哈哈哈 有些人喜欢带着Ipod, 听着自己的胜利歌跑 结果回到stadium时，就会听到：  "Attention, anyone whom dropped their Ipod on the run way, you may proceed to the lost & found counter to claimed it"  经过我身边的一对情侣：男“他说的是dropped I...

首先，闪过脑子的一个问题是： 为什么触电的两人/彼此喜欢的人会想要互相亲吻？ 为什么一定是接吻的？？ 哈哈哈.... 做 assignment做到脑袋当机了 3月春风满，人间4月天 呵呵呵 电脑在美丽的3月29号正式中风 我挂了急诊，带它从1B，到Karamunsing问了2间店 都说视线坏了，可能脑也坏了，要进“医院”+“开刀” 但是哦，我们这里设备不够，请你送去“大医院” oh man... 最后，找到一间肯收留它的医院 但是，他们很烂的，不会又不说，开刀开了那么久 也没有一通电话通知是死是活X__x 3月29号，也算是个值得纪念的日子吧 脑子坏了，还过了一个奇特的一晚 嗯 说是闯祸吗？ 我不认为是，在十七八岁算是闯祸，在二十一岁以上是见识 做人放松点，要学到东西的话，肯定得吃点苦头的 最后方案，买了一部新脑，唉，可悲 哈哈，是可喜可贺呗，有新脑可以用 小小宝贝，1.3公斤，可爱又健康！ 然让我好好善待你...嘻嘻 买了新脑，结果却遗忘了小脑！ 乐极生悲 早上在megalab做东西时，把小脑插在那里忘了拿！ 我的天.... 正兴高采烈，爽到半死用新脑，想找小脑开东西时 才轰的一声发觉，Oh hell! 我该不会忘了在........ 我的脸应该当时就变成青色了 声音都抖了，怎么办，怎么办.. external hardisk nia.... 谁捡到真的爽死了，还可以卖到50以上吧 急急忙忙穿个拖鞋就跑去搭校巴去图书馆 妈的！人衰起来真的很有谱的咯 首先电脑坏，再来话一大笔买新的，接下来就是大迷糊 连巴士司机也要插一脚，不，是踩多一脚！ 司机：Moi.. mau pi mana? （一脸我得罪他） 我：pergi library 司机：saya tak pigi sana, pi dkp saja~~! 我：ha??（已经六神无主了）kenapa? saya mo pigi library （坚持） bukan ka pi dkp akan lalu....  司机：tak pigi! dah jam berapa ni.... （那时是9点酱而已咯！） 我: bas lain...? 司机：bas lain saya tak tau！ 我：....... ok... （默默的下巴士） 心里急死了！当下决定了。 麻烦别人，是最后决策 有交通的人~...

What's with Karma? x) this is what beruang always said to me recently.. hahaha and I do think "I got that Karma~~!!!" aawwwww.... I insaf dy~ It's very wrong with me uncontrollable unstoppable  crazy crazy and crazy But well, I will be fine, sooner or later, all depends on the weather mood ops! LOL, is depends on how my brain functioned. I think it's really abit "masuk air dy" coz play too much water recently~ >O<  What a 7 years poison that will cased emotional disorder followed with a heartbeat disorder side effect wOw, Im freaking ki siao...  It's OK, just ignored this whole part which Amanda is gone crazy  gotta "clean disk" + " disk defragment" my brain  Need a pick up  pls fill in all my knowledge, war on terror, conspiracy theory, realist,  security, diplomatic~~ blablabla...GOD help me either u give me what I want or just kill it  I know i got karma