爱哭鬼

天晴有点风  最近很会哭，哭点很低                                               心情冷灰失望

没办法回复心情平复情绪的我

较真的我

还是脱口而出了，我们分手吧

更多的是我的气愤，难受，委屈

源自于他冷冷的满不在乎的态度

我觉得，好像没有必要积极，没有必要继续付出，

因为只有我一人觉得重要 觉得可以变好

总觉得他就是这样玩法的，无视我的感受，我行我素，

“你受不了是你的问题，那你就要自己想想要留下来继续给我冷还是你要配合我”

“我就是这样冷冷的。你这样的歇斯底里，很烦很显，对于你这样我感觉心冷， 也不知道要怎样继续。要怎样对待你。你说的话hurt到我”

话语里，透漏的没有提到我对你的感觉如何，我们可以怎样不要互相伤害，没有我的所作所为如何伤害到你。只有我再诉说我的不开心，变成hurt到他。而没有他hurt到我。

人

真的是善变的

人性的黑暗

I'm not surprise

但是，遇到一个心机重的人

一个passive aggresive 的控制狂

我又为我的历练加上一个FILE

会有幸福吗？我的要求真的很高，很不可能？

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